I am new here and everyone please excuse my bad english, I am from germany.
1 year after the death of my mother (cancer) I got really depressive and at first I didn't know what was wrong. I had no energy left and stayed in bed. I didn't attent my final exams in university,because I couldn't get up. I lost the desire to eat, drink and breathe. I began cutting myself and watching the movie "thirteen" about the messed up teeangers every day.
My psychiatrist prescribted me Paroxetin and in the beginning it got worse. I had more energy but still the suicidal feelings were there. After 7 weeks on Paroxetin I tried to kill myself with Aspririn and Tavor. Did'nt work and I landed on the intensive care station in hospital and after that was admitted to a therapy centre.
2 years filled with therapy and too much pills passed, right now I am still taking Paroxetin and feeling a lot of better. I am working as a primary teacher and my mood is great.
I tried to paper the pills of but I had severe withdrawl problems. Cany anyone with knowledge about antidepressants help me? I would appreciate it...